[[ Trapped Behind The Windows]]

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

[[NeVeR gOnna B a fOol OnCe AgIaN]]

HeY peeps..im back to blog....hmm...realise that i haven been taking pict recently wor...and so long my blog dun haf pict le...but no worries...coz tis sat at bbq i will take lots of pict and next sat i will be celebrating my bdae with charis and oso i will take alot alot of pict so my blog wun b that boring lor.......

hmmm...was feeling kind of relax tis one week...never realli tink much le...learning to forget and trying to let go...and LR & PR..i never take cough syrupt le lar...i can sleep well now...no worries ya...tis few weekends will be a super busy week for mi.....anyway haven been getting enough rest since friday....let mi do a brift update on wat i did since last friday ya..

17/08/2007(Friday)

Hmm....end my work at 6pm...todae no mood to work coz is friday and i got nothing to do that day too...reach office as usal eat breakfast together and than start to be a coolie to pack my office...haha..i hate to c my working area to be messy so i juz pack watever i can to make the office more comfortable and neater lor...whole day stupid chiao yee keep calling mi as she is bored too..by the time when i meet her at bugis at 6pm my hp left with oni 1 battery..all thank to her lor...we went to eat our dinner at bugis street than go shopping for clothes..after that sit at mcd to wait for weirong and frends to come and pick us up...waited and waited untill 12am and vincent suddenly appear from no where taking a citigems paper bag and surprise cy from the back with a sweet wisper "happy bdae" in her ears and a kiss on her lips...putting on the necklaces for her and the look from cy face was so super "xin fu"....realli do feel happi for her to realli find the guy she loved and wanna spend her entire life with him...how i wish i got a guy treating mi tis way..haha..ya..im day dreaming...tis year no guys put necklackes for mi lar...no bdae kiss...hahaseeing the both of them realli realli make mi feel so envy...cy..thoght we alway haf the same fate on guys...but i tink u r so much luckier than mi..though we got the same problems,one things that vincent is so damn good is that he will never hide things for u and being honest with u can alreay make u feel so secure....

18/08/2007 (Saturday)

HAPPY BDAE TO U MY DEAREST SISTER.....broke to buy u a good present tis month but im sure and i promise i will get u one when i get my pay on month end...i will never forget u r the one who realli walk with mi down the road tis one whole month...realli treasure tis frendship u haf given to mi....Hmm...i wake up at 11am todae....super early rite...and it is a rainy weather and actually i can slp much longer...but i gonna rush down to regent to meet my dearest abang for lunch....prepare and took a cab down to regent and reach around 12.30pm....went for lunch with abang and daphne join too...she bring her kids to work todae..as usual...i play with her lor...haha....realli haf a fun day and nice chat with them...after that around 5+ abang fetch mi back to amk..u r realli the best guy i haf meet till todae.....Reach home spray perfume and off i went to bugis to mit sis,sulin...sufen..charis and george @ bugis.....shopping AGAIN & BUGIS AGAIN...haha....after shopping we went for dinner and than proceed to cinleisure to buy 8 movie tickets to watch "liscence to web"..movie start around 1.45am so around 12+ we went to tcc with cy and vincent...stupid vincent...sickening idiot...u better watch on tis coming sat...

19/08/2007(sunday)

wake up at 4+....preapre and bath than accompany sis to go bishan J8 to buy her school bag as she will b starting school on 1st sept...im oso saving up to go take nite course....hmmm..study can occupy my times....after shopping till 7pm we took a cab down to weihao 21st bdae at aranda country club...stay till 10+ than go home coz super tired le...saw black mole that day...and finally we haf tok to each other again....quarral with him two times and end up never tok all bcoz of guys...im so stupid...1st time bcoz of mt quarral with him...2nd time bcoz of mike...haiz..no worries...till todae..i finally realise nothing is more impt to mi than family...frends..cousins....guys r juz another bonus for mi....haf than haf lor..dun haf oso i dun wish to force le....i believe one day i will realli find the guy who will love mi and walk down the red carpet with mi and spend the whole entire life with mi and mi only with our own family.....

20/08/2007(Monday)

Work again...MONDAY BLUE...seriously i hate to work on monday..i lazy to wake up..slp untill 7.45am...msg alvin and ask him to come and fetch mi to work...die le...more and mroe lazy to take bus now....reach work at 9am....super busy today lor....i work untill 7pm and mi and my assisatnce manager is the last 2 to go off....so she ask mi where am i going...so i told her i going bishan as i never say mervyn(Salesman) is joining mi too....coz i dun wan any gossip at work lor..everyone is frends mah...than she offer to send mi to bishan than is ay ok lor...so i faster msg mervyn and say see him at bishan....so...mi...mervyn and sulin went to buy my bdae present le than we sit and chit chat till around 10+ than mervyn send us home.....

21/08/2007 (Tuesday)

Congraution to sharon...She has gif birth to a baby boy....hope she is getting better now....juz receive her msg and she told mi she juz gif birth...haiz...so "xin fu"..Y ppl around mi..all my frends r so happily in love and married but im ALONE....alway meeting the wrong choice of guys....i tink i realli gonna open my eye wide open the next time i step into another r/ship....hmmm...off work at 6.30pm todae..actually wanna come home straight as im veri tired le..on my way back pass by my showroom and say cheng wee...so he ask mi wanna accompany him for dinner anot...so i tell him ok lor since im free....went for dinner and a drink than he send mi home le as i haf lost too much blood and im tired....haha,upon reaching home vincent and cy ask mi go down to east coast join them for steamboat...siao....all the way go down b light bulb ar...crazy....oh ya...my sis is crazy too..u all know wat...she share a room with mi and that nite when i about to slp she msg mi lor..tis is wat she msg

PQ:Hope u haf a nice rest tonite and forget about the bad memories.Life is tough sometimes,but all the pluses and minuses add up to zero....

I tink she got 500msges free dunno how to spend lor..hahahaha...anyway juz wanna let u know i do realise that tis is the 1st time when I FALL OUT OF LOVE u realli haf been by my side....telling u i bored and wanna join u out and u nv even say No to mi....and even how much u hate to go sentosa oso that sunday u join us there.....Dun alway complain that i oni thank cy..PR..lr & keline they all lar...Now in my blog i put big big ok...THANK 4 ALL THE THINGS U HAF DONE FOR MI TIS 1 MONTH AND I APPRECIATE THAT...but it will be much better if u dun blow ur temper hot and cold sometimes and try not to be so petty...hahahaha...anyway..thank bradon for mi too....HE is realli good to mi too and not forgetting he promise to bring mi out for stingray again...OKOk...i write alot le..gonna go smoke than slp le if not tobolo gonna trouble alvin to fetch mi again..haha..nitez..muackzzz

mY SAT PLAN FOR NEXT 2 WEEKS

25th august - bbQ with all my dearest....so looking forward....haha

1ST sept - Celebrating my bdae @ my old usual place.....so everyone of my dearest please make urself free on that day especially LIM PR

~~~~~Im cheering myself up already & i tink im much better now..guys bring nothing but hurtz...~~~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8/21/2007 09:42:00 PM|

Monday, August 20, 2007

[[mY maKEoVEr]]

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8/20/2007 11:12:00 PM|

Thursday, August 16, 2007

[[Deep in thoughts..loving tis songs]]

Came to hear tis song at work tis afternoon and i super duper love tis song...so the song PR say is veri suitable 4 mi is oso actually tis song....haha..so conincident....let mi put the lyrics in my blog and im waiting to upload tis songs to my blog....

温岚傻瓜

其实他做的坏事我们都懂

没有什么不同

眼光闪烁暧昧流动

闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂

没有什么不同

故作软弱撒娇害羞

只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂

爱得没那么做作

爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样

被爱情伤了又伤

相信这个他不一样

却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样

受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价

代价只是一句傻瓜

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8/16/2007 10:37:00 PM|

Monday, August 13, 2007

[[A clearer pict in my head....]]

Long overdue post since national day.....never been updating for 6days...hmmm....was feeling kind of moody ever one of the day in july.....ya....was kind of everyday im veri sad mood.....but not anymore strating from today le k....

so i shall start updating on national day eve which is on the 8th of august ya....i went to shin 8 with usual khakis.....brandon..george....dainel...sis...pr..charis..keline....was a fun day coz the 1st time i c brandon drunk....oh ya...and everybody was so on that day..after wenshan and company off work at 3am all of us went down to st james....so they took a cab down and mi..charis...george take dianel car there...and im so happi that i c my x colledgues at the parking space there....go by the wrong way so we reach st james oni at 3.35am lor..and that was the most horriable nite i was at st james....pr and ws got into some arguement with the bouncers and door bitch..st james bouncers realli damn sucks lor..using the bloddy walkie talkie calling for help...haha..useless bums...nearly got into fight lor...and stupid pr still go and push the dustbin and end up all the bouncers run over...so funny and ended up the 1st time i was being ask to get out of a clubbing place lor...sickening rite....

09/08/2007

National day todae...by the time i wake up is already like 3+ going to 4pm.....prepare myself and off we went to watch the movie 881....was a funny show and to my surprise tis show is not oni funny...is so super touching untill i drop tears lor...normally i watch show i seldom drop tears lor..i will control de but dunno y tis times i cannot...haha....now i bcum a cry baby too.....

10/08/2007

Met cy after work...but i went to suntec 4 dinner with my sis and keline 1st....the dinner super full lor..make mi wan to vomit...than after dinner cy come find mi.....went to sis office to slack untill 10pm than mi and cy on call a cab to st james coz we promise daphne to go over....but ended up we nv go in bcoz of some reason...so we took a cab to chinatown to lobang george than off we go down to serangoon ktv miting keline..pr..lr...sis...charis there..drinking session again but im not drunk that day wor....the drunkard is charis...hahaha....actually i feel veri lucky....tis bunch of ppls is alway around mi....they will never let mi walk alone esp cy...the care and concern that u haf show mi tis whole month i realli can feel it and u r realli a great frends since 3years back...

11/08/2007

Went to PS for shopping around noon time.....bought a dress and after 30% discount it cost mi oni $14...sibei cheap lor....good bargain ya...after dinner went to cafe catte to eat and the stupid service is fucking poor lor....na bei...nv will i go there again u sickening idiot ass.....after dinner we took a cab down to east coast to meet up with chiao yee and vincent.....relax lar....haha.sometime go tis time of relaxing pub oso not bad wan lor......went to BFD over there,price is reasonable too...had a chat with them till 2+ than headed home coz the next day is sentosa day.....

12/08/2007

Cafe del mar is a SUPER FUN place lor.......my 1st time day..knowing that i am in a bad mood that day bradon drive car come down and fetch us to Sentosa....oh....and my 1st time wearing bikin and showing off my FATS...coz bo bian i wanna go into the pool and morris force us to go down....mi and charis veri sporty lor..but sitting bside charis i was veri "zi bei" coz mine veri veri small wor....haiya...anymore go there enjoy and happi wan mah...so who cares wat other ppls say about us.....went with george..bradon..charis...sis....mi....hida..morris and frends.....nice place...i love it....bringing mi back to my memories when i was in silosa beach the veri 1st time i c him performing there....so after sentosa around 9+ i suddenly msg PR...i told her...gif mi a cup of water that can forget everything....and she reply mi back a msg that im so touch..thats wat she told mi

PR: u know,everyone make mistake in life and they r not deserved to let ppl sat they are stupid coz they learn from their mistake and never repeat them.I've learned tat time,actually dun heal wounds but time fades everyting....U have to at least try,to forget n let go,just ask urself,do u derserve all tis misery when u've put in so much into tis r/ship?IF's its mi..i would try not to tink of anything now and if things with him will work out,it will one day.CHeer up!

Ya...i will cheer up ASAP starting from todae onwards....wun tink of things that is un-nessary and impossiable anymore le...will learn to stand up after a great pain fall that i haf......never go work todae again....i got to keep myself busy with work work work and plan programme ahead....cy told mi that no matter wat happen i still got her.....and yes..i realli realli do love a frends like u....and dun worry..i will plan afew days to go ur house overnite i promise......ur zoo planning and chalet u gonna make it fast coz i wan alot of programme now to keep mi occupy.....Lies is alway hurting....but truth hurtz too...thats human nature i tink....mayb im being too selfish but who dun love thier own kids...who will love another person more than the kids...i muz b kidding to myself...if tis is wat realli is happening,i realli wish u and ur family the best from my heart....i wun be a 3rd party anymore.....

~~~~~Wishing u the best in ur life and ur family...1 person getting hurt is better than a family being hurt...tis type of hurtz is not i wanna get again in future~~~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8/13/2007 08:28:00 PM|

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

[[Boringz nitezzzzz]]

Here to blog coz i guess i wun be blogging for the next few days coz national day coming.....haha.....so fast todae is tuesday le.....tml gonna go drinking again i guess....singapore nite life sucks man,other than drinking..pub...movie..ktv than no more places le...and tis year im going to celebrate nationday day and my bdae alone....haha..so pitiful hor...the 1st year of single life doing all tis alone tis coming sept...haiz....poor gal hor...

Hmm...went punggol park last nite...the atmosphere there is good and most of all the food is best lor...can go there romantic wan lar...is a veri relaxing place for couples and frends....much more better than fisherman i feel.....come home and bath and alvin fetch mi at 9pm to go there mit charis...haf our dinner and drink and chit chat awhile than go off.....tis is my life..juz now mummy start to say mi again...she say my old pattern coming back le...alway going out everyday and coming home late....ya..i agree...whenever i no bf im like that coz no ppl control mi mah..and alone at home make mi so lonely and kp tinking anf tinking......life still muz go on no matter how hard it is rite....

Haf a short chat with ah bang tis afternoon at work....realli seriously miz him alot alot....got so much to tell him....ya...im going to c him next week for dinner..im so happi.....waited for so long le.....he is so sweet...he still rem my bdae and he know im going to be alone on my actual bdae tis year so he told mi tis in the afternoon....he say.....adek...try to take leave on 6th sept....and he oso take leave on that day and he bring mi to go somewhere to relax....isnt he sweet???He is still my ever ever best ah bang till now ever since the day i leave regent......i miz all my x colledgues in regent and i miz every single moment in regent......carefree life and as and when i like i can c ah bang or daphne they all anytime and any moments.......

K lar....gonna go take my cough syrupt to slp le.....shall update again when im free....wishing Singapore a happy 42 years old bdae.....muackkkkkzzzzzzz.....And to all my frends..enjoy ur holidays......

~~~~Somethings is missing in my life...i lost my heart on 21th of july 2007~~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8/07/2007 09:26:00 PM|

Monday, August 06, 2007

[[Liquor free weekend is all bullshit..lalala]]

hmm..juz came back from ktv....wast so bored at home doing nothing...purposly dun wanna slp in the afternoon so that i can slp at nite...but now im still so awake...jiat lat...now everyday oso cant slp early...my god.....help mi man.....

Wat liquor free for tis week...haha...all bull shit wan lor.....went shin bar with PR...charis...sis...tim...mengteck and bradon on friday nite again....martella again..but tis time i nv realli drink much coz i muz take care of my gastric wor..i dun wan to be like my cousin waiting to die wan lar...hmmmm....haf a long chat with mt on friday.....he seems to grow more mature...anymore im glad that when u know im sad u still come out to mit mi as a frends and listen to all my problems despite all the attitude i haf given to u......went home after shin as im too tired le...

not enough slp coz thursday nite my colledgues alvin bdae.....went party world and we mit at 10pm at orchard lor...went down with charis coz so conincident alvin is her poly classmate.....hmmm....as usual thur i went off from work at 6pm and went suntec to get present for alvin than i on call a cab down to orchard....went home around 12.30pm and oni manage to slp at 2plus....so the next day off coz im late to work lor...oni wake up at 8am lor...luckily alvin is kind enough to come fetch mi to work....was so steam at work whole day on friday.....go off straight at 5.30pm coz alvin say he send mi home....so 5.30pm sharp i juz shut my cpu and go off....bo bian,im too tired and my assistance manager sure understand mi rite coz she was oso at ktv on thur nite....im glad that i can click with them so well now.....sharing my problems with her too.......actually in the past i dun like to work under gal manager,but now i change my mind......haha....im so frickle minded ya....

Im like a pig on sat.....i cant imagine myself slping whole day for saturday lor....god..i oni wake up at 7.30pm and bath and get ready to go movie at 9+ lor......super power lor....and the pig for that day is mi and charis coz we both oni wake up at 7+ that day..dunno y so tired lor...went movie with bradon...george...sis...dennis..charis and mi....watch the show "perfect stranger"...haha.....i dun like the show coz i dun understand wat they toking lor...i fall alslp in cinema and dennis wake mi up....haha....so pai say wor.....show start around 12+ and end around 2+...not a veri nice show lar so dunw aste money watching k....haha.....after movie they wanna go eat AGAIN.....as i was full so i went down to st james to join my salesman...coz they already jio mi go club many times le and last time i alway reject them...now im single and wanna go where oso no ppl care le....hmmmmm...izit a good things or a bad things?Anyway....was a fun nite at dragonfly that nite coz wenshan was there too and i join her after that with her frends.....reach home oni tis morning at 6+ and mummy was awake le preparing to go work......luckily she nv nag at mi wor......

juz now went amk hub shopping b4 i went ktv and i bought 2 pairs of shoes....super cheap and chio lor...1 pair oni $10 lar...haha...gonna save money le coz next month im gonna pay for 2 hp lines le.....shit man....im going to haf a big headache.......anyway it haf been a long time since i got guy waiting downstair for mi juz to c if im at home safely anot.....hmm...i appreaciate wat u haf been doing but i dun tink it is the rite time 4 mi now....k lar...gonna go try to slp le or im going to haf a tired day at work tml again...nitezzzzz.......

~~~~~Memories fade....everything fate as times goes by~~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8/06/2007 12:36:00 AM|

Sunday, August 05, 2007

[[New SonG For My BlOg]]

Start to love tis song coz the meaning is veri meaniful and oni get to know tis song on thursday when my assistance manager say she wanna sing mi a song for mi at partyworld on thursday..she say the song is veri suitable for mi and ya...i agree too....title for the song is "hai pa"....ya..im realli scare to fall in love again...

害怕

忘

我没有很努力要自己去遗忘

那些和日记一起收藏的过往

孤单在思绪之中变得很漫长

想

我没有很刻意让自己不去想

那些和照片静止的模样

我学着坚强

坚强到不用学着不想

学着遗忘

还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你

还是害怕的不经意听见你的消息

然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰

当拥有已经是失去

就勇敢的放弃

还是害怕一个人时就很难忘记

还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定

然而当爱最后的出口是分离

我会这么相信

走下去

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8/05/2007 05:28:00 PM|

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

[[Wat can i do to 4get u........]]

Been a week since i last update....haiz..wat to do...when one ppl is down on luck many things will happen to them continously rite..haiz..it apply to mi....already so unhappy and moody and somemore my fucking friendster ganna delete...if ever i know the @$##@!$%*&^% who delte my frendster i sure fucking curse u untill no left.....

Ya..nothing much to update for weekdays...as usual weekdays off work i will come home....cough syrupt is a must for mi now everynite..without drinking i wun be able to sleep..it is like my sleeping pill to make mi fall alsleep.....receive a call last wednesday from ah bee....she realli cheer mi up and i realli miz the times she stay at my house when she was young and whenever i cry she take tissue to wipe my tears...my short conversation with ah bee:

ah bee:ah mei...u very sad ar?

Me : HUH?who tell u i veri sad de?

ah bee : PQ ah yi tell mi u veri sad lor

Me : haiya..she anyhow say wan lar...dun listen to her

ah bee : NO LAR..u sad lar

Me : REALLI dun haf lar

ah bee : AH MEI...U FALL OUT OF LOVE AR?

Me : siao ar...dun haf lar...who tell u i fall out of love

ah bee : PQ say u veri sad and u fall out of love

Cute rite....even a kiddo like her can call and console mi when she know im sad....if ever i know tis days will happen to mi i wun haf put so much feeling into it....haiz...now im struggling alone like hell to get rid of the picture in my brain....k...le mi update my weekend Last friday

27th July 07 (friday)

Actually i never intend to go out....coz im realli tired and got not enough slp coz everyday i slping oni at 3+am going to 4....reach home and bath...watch tv and receive a call from pR asking mi to go Shin Bar...saying is boring to stay home on a weekend...so i agree coz i have meet dennis for dinner that day.....so after hanging up the call dennis come fetch mi at 8.15pm and we went toa payoh for dinner coz he nv went to the citibank dinner with my sis and keline....so after eating we chit chat at the coffeeshop and aound 10+ we went down to shin and PQ..keline and donald was the 1st to reach...than mi and dennis reach awhile and pr and charis reach...stupid donald..knn...ask him pay abit oni dun wan to drink and still go home....kns...anyway we still haf a fun nite witout u...Norman and chris join too....they r sis frends....so ended up that day the the 7 of us drink 3 bottles and i nv realli eat much for dinner...shin bar close @ 3am so mi..wenshan and pr plan to go geyland and eat after that...and we nv ask the rest to follow coz we wanna talk..best cousins mah..of coz haf a heart to heart tok sometimes rite..haha....so 3 drunkards take a cab and proceed to geyland to haf steamboat...and reach home around 4.30pm and as usual nv change and i went to bed....and i haf a super terriable nite that day...i dunno y i wake up at 6.30pm and i vomit even b4 i reach the toilet...all the food i eat all vomit out and i vomit 8 times...break record rite..i stay in the toilet from 6.30am to 8.30am than i come back to my bed with a plastic bed....coz once i lye down i vomit again.....oni manage to slp at 9am that day....

So sat i was force to wake up at 1pm to go amk with cy and vincent to c fortune teller....haf a veri bad gastric that day..but as i alreay promise them i go with them so i force myself to wake up.....after go fortune teller i reach home around 6+ and i go bath and went up to yishun coz my father side cousin bdae...went for awhile and left around 9+ to mit keline....sis and charis to watch movie...Knock up is a nice show...super duper nice..and ya..i seldom watch movie and now i rate the movie 5 big big star...is worth watching......went home after the movie coz im realli not feeling well.....

Sunday finally i can slp late.....but gastric pain so cant go anywhere as well...dennis offer to send lunch to me coz he say gastric pain ask mi dun eat kfc...coz as usual sunday sis sure order mcd or kfc...but i told him dun need coz my sis already order.....i realli rest at home that day and slp untill 8+ than i wake up and create my new frendster account and went to bath than mit tim and alvin out for my late dinner and chit chatting with them till 12+ than come home...take medi and off to bed......

30TH july 07

ITS mummy bdae todae....so we went to plum restaurant at thomson to eat with my gugu they all coz mum quarral with dad again and we get gugu to help us to ask them out...sis bought a cake and pay for the dinner...as 4 mi i oni can buy her a present after i get my pay....suppose to mit kelvin on tuesday and mit chris todae....but i put them areoplane coz my stomache realli dun feel good and dun realli feel like drinking tis whole week.....like wat pr tell mi juz now...tis week liquor free....haha...so we shall plan other programmes.....

Hmmmmm.....happiness is alway short.....realli muz treasure wat u haf on hands.....if not the happiness realli wun stay long.....memories is wat can be left in my head now....loving a person is hard....knowing the person is juz a phone call away from u and u must stop contacting himis even harder....but pls fucking wake up Felicia Song.....i will stay strong......my happiness is awaiting for mi....

~~~~~it shall alway be a memories forever~~~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8/01/2007 08:39:00 PM|