[[ Trapped Behind The Windows]]

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

[[~~~Chaptered Ended~~~]]

Feel like crying...Will crying out loud clear away my problems and troubles that i haf bottom it up in my heart for tis whole month?

Im tired le..y cant i have a normal loving r/ship like how others couples is going through?Y tis type of things happen to mi everytime?Worst still....im not a FLIRT...Been tinking tis few nitez wat haf i do wrong to deserve all tis?Is it fair to me?Loving a person is hard...im going to find a person who realli love mi more than i love him...

Gifing up is alway so easy to come out from our mouth..but actually deep down inside our heart,wat is the real ans oni we ourself know best...stay in office on monday untill 10.30pm...whole day nv drink with them,,nv sing with them,nv play with them...practically im juz sitting down there dreaming and msging...sorry kelvin..know u come down all the way to join us and yet when u come i nv tok to u..hmmm..but he was damn observant..when he left at 9.45pm,he call mi straight when he go into his car,the 1st que he ask mi was "R U ALRITE?U seems to be having alot of thoughts running through ur head".....i reply him im ok and he is tinking too much..but still he dun believe and msg mi with all those encouraging msges,thank u so much...after he ask,my aunt was the next to ask mi the same que..once i step into the car,she ask mi"Y u so quiet todae?u OK anot?anything unhappi?I too ans her a NO...she suddenly turn over and ask mi...Problems with r/ship or family?My answer to her was "BOTH"....and she ans mi "If u r very tired le than dun tink too much...go and drink till u drunk and tml slp whole day"...my tears started to roll in my eye...control it by not dropping...when i alight from the car,all she say is "dun tink too much" anything can call mi and chat...I appreciate that....meet bro after that....stay till 12++ than go back...tis few days...tears is the one that alway acc mi everynite and sometime even at work...i feel so weak..useless and helpless....

Too many things happen recently and i hope i can get over it...im upset...heart break...moodless...if ever my sis can understand how i feel..there are times whereby i wish to tok to her about my problems..instead of alway acting a strong front infront of her..toking cock...telling joke and watever rubbish...acting happy and even when im sad i still act like a crown...y suddenly things become like that?y suddenly all tis happen?Can i dun tink about it?Anyway gonna go interview tobolo after work at ubi...pray and hope i get the job...5 days work oni...

Some pict to upload on sat dbl o...no mood to write down in my blog..pict tell everythings....

-Me & Ida (Sulin)

-Kissing Charis***tink i drunk le***

-guess wat she is doing?ayumi?i tink is sulami

-Pinkie Sweetie Pie

-Ayumi & 2 pink ladies

-My EverbEst bROtHEr aND CoUSin & Me!

I wan a normal love life...can someone grand mi my wish..i dun wan to care wat ppl say anymore...tired of all tis games....anyway i realli wanna tell my auntie im so touch by u...when u call mi juz now..i already force my self not to cry..but still u know im crying..and the moment u know i crying u ask mi to wait for u to come back office now...anyway..im touch..but is ok..ah gui they all will acc mi 1st than after that im miting cy..suling and bro....i thank god to haf u all...love u all

~~~Sometime love aint just enough~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/23/2007 02:30:00 PM|

[[*Trapped Soul*]]

...The GAL ~~

>>Felicia Song/Fenfen/Ah mei

>>Born in 06/09/1984

>>22 year old/female

>>Love Family althought alway quarral

>>Love Cousins..

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>>Love ktv..Clubbing...beach

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>>Have more $$$ to Spend & Go Travel

>>Frends & Family To BE Happy

>>Less Trouble & Problem for mi

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>>BetRAYers

>>Seaood & Herbal Tea

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