[[ Trapped Behind The Windows]]

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

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Hmmm....to my dearest cousins....enjoy urself to perth & send my regards to CH...tell her i miz her....take good care ya...Bon Vogage

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/30/2007 01:19:00 PM|

[[Im Not A Player......]]

Hmmm..things happen repeatly and repeatly...is tis call life?Life is something so stressful...if ever i got the chance i hope im not even born into tis world...

Today is actually my last day here in this company..but my auntie again keep asking mi to stay...she and the sales manager wanna go and fight for mi telling the boss we dun wan that indonesian gal to get involve with our things,so wat should i do next?Work stress..everything stress...more to come to gif mi stress...haiz...

I sad....realli sad..to tink got someone say that im a player..for those who know me well enough know that im not tis type of person....Sensitive is my character,i dun wan it tis way too...but wat can i do when im alway so sensitive,it cant be help and i oso cant possiable control my sensitiveness..moreover my past r/ship fail bcoz of LIES....lieing bcoz of gals.....that is the reason y i hate my bf to lie and hide things from me ya....

Feeling so sad..stress..moody and diappointed tis 3 weeks...May is realli not a good month for me...damn fuck up i can say...i dunno wat to blog nor wat to say..juz feel sad and got nobody that i can confide in now so i just write to my blog....Anyway gonna make programme for tis whole week le to keep in occupate and not think so much le.........

Tonite programme will be going back to Regent to find my abang for dinner than after that go meet daphne and those sales guy @ balaclava (suntec) for few cups of drinks than i will proceed to zouk .....

Friday i dun haf to work le....haha...ask my frends to take half day and accompany mi to the beach...after beach at nite i will find programme to go ktv.......

Satuday nite mayb im going st james....but not confirm yet....hmmm..now got to do alot of planning for entertainment...to make myself busy and occupy....

"Love is never a simple things...say it only when ur heart means it & remember alway,embrace those whom we love"

Never once do i treat anyone as a machine or anything be it frends or bf....im not tis type of persons....i alway treasure and appreciate ppl around mi and i love them for who there are from my heart....Love start with a smile...grows with a kiss and end with tears................

~~~Im fading away like a broken picture,the colour is gone & the brushes is broken,all i need is someone to colour me like how u used too~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/30/2007 11:23:00 AM|

Friday, May 25, 2007

[[pict @ shin bar]]

-Me & ChArmaine.....

-Cousins Alwayz....

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/25/2007 11:29:00 AM|

[[~~~Good things dun stay Long~~~]]

Hmm.....went for my interview yest at 5.30pm....manager was friendly and 1st time i interview in chinese..hahaha..coz the manager ask mi,u prefer to tok in chinese or english..haha..siao lar..of coz chinese,overall interview is comfortable...working environment okay...maybe is bcoz i go back to my same old line bah...i still prefer cars...haha...5 days work week...mon to fri 8.30am to 5.30am.....somemore they got more young colleadges....And on the spot he ask mi when can i start work...at that time im veri happi and pressure at the same time because i dunno how to gif my auntie an explanation....Tis time round im going to take 1 week off before i start my new job...hahaha

Been tinking how to tell my auntie i wanna resign untill tis morning when i come to work and i argue with the indonesian gals than i realli buay tahan lor...just send her a msg to let her know i wan to resign coz i dunno how to tell her face to face...she is realli a good boss...good auntie and most of her she take care of mi and alway side with mi....but unfortunatly i meet with shitty people here....haha..anyway im not interested in chemical...a good futher it may be...but i dun wish to waste time on jobs that i dun like....to me,now pay is not impt..most impt is the interest in the work and oso must be happy in the environment and peoples u mit who..yest take mc...coz i lao sai so went to eat Fish & Co With GH...Mc still can eat fish & co hor..haha....after eating chit chat awhile than go home to prepare and go interview...after interview kelvin ask mi go pub for awhile...so he come ubi fetch mi than go pub till 8+ than i rush home to watch the 9pm show...

Wednesday wat did i do?almost forget le..hmm...oni rem im veri upset that day,tears cant control that day...tok abit oso tears roll down..haha....so after work Mr Seow there all come down to office ktv and accompany mi till 8.30pm than he send mi back to amk to mit up with sulin and tim....went to serangoon and after mengteck finish his study he come down and join us at 11pm...chit chat...drink and go home at 1.30am bah....so tired le.....but i realli realise all my X actually can be veri close frends with mi and i appreciate that they still care for mi....After writing my blog im going to type my resign letter le..tis time is different from that time i resign from regent..coz that time i cant make up my mind..but tis time i realli haf a firm decision....

Settle one things @ a time...work wise im more relax now...as for family & r/ship wat more can i do?Just let nature take it course coz im too tired to go and bother all tis le...We wun know wat will happen to us the next min or the next day...after my grandpa and grandma death,i realli do realise life is vulnerable,coz they look so alrite todae and they can just pass away the next day,so to mi,now i treasure wat i have in my hands,i will not wan myself to feel regret..nobody know when and wat will happen to us next so i will never waste my time on things or on ppls whom i dunno wat they are tinking...just like a saying "it take 1 year to built up a trust & a min to destroy it "....and now i change it to "it take 1 year to maintain a r/ship but a week to destroy it"....hmmmmm..Y will god wan to create gals & guys?Y will god want to create r/ship that make ppls feel sad and hurt?And most importanly,y god create me....haiz.....

K lar...realli wanna haf a good rest and a good mind b4 i start a new job,meeting new frends and oso to forget things which i should....

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/25/2007 10:28:00 AM|

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

[[~~~Chaptered Ended~~~]]

Feel like crying...Will crying out loud clear away my problems and troubles that i haf bottom it up in my heart for tis whole month?

Im tired le..y cant i have a normal loving r/ship like how others couples is going through?Y tis type of things happen to mi everytime?Worst still....im not a FLIRT...Been tinking tis few nitez wat haf i do wrong to deserve all tis?Is it fair to me?Loving a person is hard...im going to find a person who realli love mi more than i love him...

Gifing up is alway so easy to come out from our mouth..but actually deep down inside our heart,wat is the real ans oni we ourself know best...stay in office on monday untill 10.30pm...whole day nv drink with them,,nv sing with them,nv play with them...practically im juz sitting down there dreaming and msging...sorry kelvin..know u come down all the way to join us and yet when u come i nv tok to u..hmmm..but he was damn observant..when he left at 9.45pm,he call mi straight when he go into his car,the 1st que he ask mi was "R U ALRITE?U seems to be having alot of thoughts running through ur head".....i reply him im ok and he is tinking too much..but still he dun believe and msg mi with all those encouraging msges,thank u so much...after he ask,my aunt was the next to ask mi the same que..once i step into the car,she ask mi"Y u so quiet todae?u OK anot?anything unhappi?I too ans her a NO...she suddenly turn over and ask mi...Problems with r/ship or family?My answer to her was "BOTH"....and she ans mi "If u r very tired le than dun tink too much...go and drink till u drunk and tml slp whole day"...my tears started to roll in my eye...control it by not dropping...when i alight from the car,all she say is "dun tink too much" anything can call mi and chat...I appreciate that....meet bro after that....stay till 12++ than go back...tis few days...tears is the one that alway acc mi everynite and sometime even at work...i feel so weak..useless and helpless....

Too many things happen recently and i hope i can get over it...im upset...heart break...moodless...if ever my sis can understand how i feel..there are times whereby i wish to tok to her about my problems..instead of alway acting a strong front infront of her..toking cock...telling joke and watever rubbish...acting happy and even when im sad i still act like a crown...y suddenly things become like that?y suddenly all tis happen?Can i dun tink about it?Anyway gonna go interview tobolo after work at ubi...pray and hope i get the job...5 days work oni...

Some pict to upload on sat dbl o...no mood to write down in my blog..pict tell everythings....

-Me & Ida (Sulin)

-Kissing Charis***tink i drunk le***

-guess wat she is doing?ayumi?i tink is sulami

-Pinkie Sweetie Pie

-Ayumi & 2 pink ladies

-My EverbEst bROtHEr aND CoUSin & Me!

I wan a normal love life...can someone grand mi my wish..i dun wan to care wat ppl say anymore...tired of all tis games....anyway i realli wanna tell my auntie im so touch by u...when u call mi juz now..i already force my self not to cry..but still u know im crying..and the moment u know i crying u ask mi to wait for u to come back office now...anyway..im touch..but is ok..ah gui they all will acc mi 1st than after that im miting cy..suling and bro....i thank god to haf u all...love u all

~~~Sometime love aint just enough~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/23/2007 02:30:00 PM|

Friday, May 18, 2007

[[A failure In my 23Years Of Living]]

WAT THE FUCK...EVERYHING GOING WRONG WAY..FUCKING IRRITATED..DISAPPOINTED AND SAD...OTHER THAN TIS?Dun wish to fucking think of anything @ the moment.

TO WHOEVER IT MAY CONCERN..YA..IM NOT AS DUMB AS U...EVERYONE HAF THEIR OWN PROBLEMS TO FACE....DUN TELL MI U GOT NO PROBLEMS @ ALL?DOES IT MEAN IF U GOT PROBLEMS I CAN JUZ SIMPLY SAY U R DUMB? ANYWAY I LOVE TO BE DUMB...A DUMBASS K...ALL ALONG IM SO FUCKING DUMB K...I DUN ADMIT BUT TIS IS MI..MY CHARACTER...IM SO DISAPPOINTED @ U WRITING ALL THE THINGS U KNOW INSIDE THE BLOG AND LETTING EVERYONE KNOW...AND IM FUCKING MORE DISAPPOINTED THAT WHEN GOT PROBLEMS THE ONE U GO AND TELL IS MY MUM & NOT ME....

YES..I ALWAY DUN GET MY THOUGHTS RIGHT AND CALL AND FUCK PPL...TIS IS MI...U HAVE UR TEMPER I OSO HAF MINE...DUN ALWAY TINK THAT ONI U GOT A FUCKING BAD AND STUBBORN TEMPER LAR K..YA...LET MI TELL ALL OF U INSIDE MY BLOG BIG AND CLEAR K....WEATHER I LOVE HIM OR NOT AND END UP I STILL GIF HIM A CHANCE ANOT I DUN HAF TO ASK FOR OPINION ANYMORE...TIS WILL BE MY OWN PROBLEM AND EVEN IF I REGRET TIS IS MY OATH I CHOOSE..DUN HAF TO GO TELL EVERYONE THAT HE IS NOT GOOD....

HE LIE ABOUT SOCCER EVERYTHING ALL I KNOW...EVERYONE HAF THEIR PAST..DUN TELL MI U ALL IS SO 100% AND NEVER MAKE MISTAKE?WHEN U CHOOSE BF WILL U EXPECT HIM TO GO OUT WITH OTHER GALS OR WATEVER?I DUN TINK SO LAR K...AND DUN LOOK DOWN ON PPL WHO IS DIVORCE AND GOT KIDS...I DUN NEED A RICH BF...ALL I NEED IS SOMEONE WHO LOVE ME...ALL THE THINGS IS THE PAST LE...DUN WISH TO DIG UP AND SAY ANYMORE TOO....THANK U ALL FOR WAT U HAF DONE.....NEVER WILL I GO APOLOSGISE TO U COZ WAT DISAPPOINT MI THE MOST IS ANYTHING U CAN ALWAY TELL MI AND NOT TELLING MY MUM....

WATEVER FUCK K....I HAF ENOUGH OF EVERYTHINGS...FULL STOP TO ALL TIS TOPICS...U ALL R NOT MI..ALL OF U WUN FUCKING UNDERSTAND HOW I REALLI FEEL...FOR U ALL TO SAY ANYTHING IS ALWAY SO FUCKING EASY AND SIMPLE..WHEN THINGS FALL INTO UR SHOE THAN U ALL WILL REALISE THAT U ALL WILL BE THE SAME AS DUMB AS ME..OR EVEN DUMBER....

@ LEAST IM NOT DUMB TO GET CHEATED BY GUYS......WATEVER....LOSSING TRUST IN EVERYONE CLOSE TO MI...GO GANG UP AND HATE MI...GOSSIP ABOUT MI..GO AHEAD..I WUN FUCKING BOTHER ANYMORE...SUCK A FUCKING DISAPPOINTED DAY TO KNOW ALL TIS THINGS....

~~~~~Kill me if u all wanna behave tis way...it will be much more relief to me~~~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/18/2007 02:27:00 PM|

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

[[Im So Disappointed With The Ending!Lost In Words]]

Haiz...know y im blogging now @ home at tis hour?Of coz im unhappy again lar...luckily today my blog never gif mi problem le....No mood to update wat i did the last few days...when i got mood i will backdate it again and post up the pict i took in shin bar ya...

Feeling so fucking frastered now...dunno y..tink i siao le...depression,haha..dun tink so lar..haha...juz now bro ask mi out for dinner..but last min gonna go habourfront to mit my uncle and dunno untill wat time..sorri bro..make it up to u the next time...Pr oso jio mi out today..juz bcoz she wan to prevent mi for arguing with my mum..hmm...gal..i know how to control my temper on certain things..will keep my cool...so much problems recently...family problem...r/ship problem...work problem...god...everyday go office must c 2 black face coz my aunt and the manager quarral and end up im involve and inbetween....Im going crazy in a matter of times....i hope frends wun gif mi problems....Looking for flight recently to go for a holiday..hmmm....gonna waste $$$ again so now gonna save up some cash so i can go ASAP...beginning of june???ya...I need a break..simply need it too much...mayb i wanna go china or taiwan..haha

Hmmm...suddenly feel so lonely...like wat PR alway say she feel cold?y lar?coz she is lonely..hahahaha..lamb rite?hmmm..disappointment is wat i can say untill today...im so so so so tired of all the quarral and lossing of patient le...i dunno wat to blog and i dunno wat to write?veri bo liao rite?but i juz feel like blogging..dunno y..mayb im so unhappy..sad..moody and disappointed...hmm...WAI POH....can u please blessed mi???Im so lost now...i seems to cant find my way out in alot of things...realli realli lost...feel like juz going off for a holiday..anybody interest???can go longer 2 weeks even better..i will resign straight away to go for a short holidays...i tink i realli need a break...peaceful places...

Maybe tis is realli my revenge for treating GH like that in the past..hahahaha...God is punishing mi on his behalf thats y im encoutering all tis problems...HOW CAN I BE HAPPY? Cry in office after drinking with my auntie that day..realli cant hide my feeling anymore that nite..feel so pai say...Haiya..dun say le...so sian le....wanna go tink wat i realli must do....Disappointed is all i have in my brain now....Looking forward to saturday meeting all of u all....

Kelvin..haha...pai say huh....will go pub with u some other days...put u areoplane for a few times...tell ur colledgues will make it up another days too...And PR..PLEASE STANDBY UR MARTELL FOR ME....

~~~~Hurt is wat u haf left in my heart...For tis lifetime im not going to trust ur words anymore~~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/16/2007 10:33:00 PM|

Saturday, May 12, 2007

[[Be Strong & I tink i can overcome anything]]

Hmm..nothing to do in office so i thought i will juz pen down someting in my blog todae..seriously i feel that it is good to haf a blog..is like my diary or i could say is juz like another close frends of mine whereby i can confide everything unhappi inside my blog...i guess im just to used to write on my blog whenever im unhappy..

Shin bar again yest nitez..my god..go there continous 2 days le...total of sleep i haf for tis 2 days is oni 6 hours lor...im tired but when i wake up i totally cant feel my tiredness at all...maybe later part int he afternoon i will be sleepy bah..Yest was a fun nite @ shin with PR..Weiwen..Weihao...Nana...Me....Keline...Charmaine..Michelle & wenshan bf & frends...Hmm...the most drunkard of the nite surprisingly not keline lor..is michelle..haha..but u all dun tink keline never drunk lor..she got drunk lar but she wake up at the later part and asking mi to kiss her to reward her for not being drunk..haha..so i gif her a peck on her cheek and u all know wat?she wan mi to kiss her mouth..OMG...i will faint man..heehee...Hmm...realise that everyone have their own problems...is a matter of how we are going to solve the problems and dun let history repeat itself rite?Hmm.tok & act as if i veri strong now lor but actually im not....7 years compare to 1 year mine is realli reali nothing...i believe she can do it and so can i...Jia You Gal...hmmm....after yest im more confirm and sure that ALL GUYS ARE THE SAME...Heartless freak..

Im sorry to neglect all my frends when im in a r/ship..u all should know all gals are like that wan mah,but im glad and veri happi that when things go wrong for mi,u all are still there for mi,im fortuante to haf such a close groups of cousins & frends like u all...And oso not forgetting my ever best bro tim..haf a chat in msn with him..Bro..im realli touch,u r realli a great frends to be with...thank 4 alway being there for mi tis 6 years ever since i start to know u..whenever my r/ship got problem u never fail to accompany me,,i do appreciate it.below is our conversation

Dr.T - nothing says:
u wan to noe y i not close with u now
- Dr.T - nothing says:
cos i feel u always gt guy to acc u
- Dr.T - nothing says:
i dun have much money to go out wif u
- Dr.T - nothing says:
but i stil treat u as my best bro

A Brand New Day.A Brand New Start..I Wan To Be Happy says:
i where got guys alway acc mi
A Brand New Day.A Brand New Start..I Wan To Be Happy says:
i no guys frends wan lar
A Brand New Day.A Brand New Start..I Wan To Be Happy says:
we alway go out in a group oni got weiwen 1 guy mah

Dr.T - nothing says:
today we stil down n have a gd tok..
- Dr.T - nothing says:
i dun wan c u cry

A Brand New Day.A Brand New Start..I Wan To Be Happy says:
i hate myself to be so weak

Dr.T - nothing says:
dun cry la
- Dr.T - nothing says:
then later u meet mi will cry ma
A Brand New Day.A Brand New Start..I Wan To Be Happy says:
wat u tink lar
- Dr.T - nothing says:
will
- Dr.T - nothing says:
its ok la,cryin is better then keepin inside
A Brand New Day.A Brand New Start..I Wan To Be Happy says:
i thought u alway tink that im veri strong
- Dr.T - nothing says:
strong , no matter how strong will collapsed

Dr.T - nothing says:
its always not easy to get over things easily de
A Brand New Day.A Brand New Start..I Wan To Be Happy says:
i know is not easy
A Brand New Day.A Brand New Start..I Wan To Be Happy says:
But i will try rather than holding on to the r/ship alone.
- Dr.T - nothing says:
ya la,tats the bro i noe
- Dr.T - nothing says:
i support u all de way

Hmm,thank bro for everything...anyway u all realli make mi feel that u all do treasure me alot alot more than a bf should do...i will treasure each and everyone of u more than last time i promise..u all are my great frends....My heart is break but i believe time will heal my wound,i will never let any guys to come into my life and hurt mi or make use of mi anymore...i believe i can do it...PR..standby the martell than we bet yesterday at Shin Bar k...Coz i can make it tis time round...sure lost....Love u guys all..muacks

~~~Falling in love is easy..forgetting u need times~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/12/2007 11:24:00 AM|

Friday, May 11, 2007

[[A fresh New Day..A fresh new ME]]

Haiz..recently my blog keep having problem lar...dunno wat happen lar..sian lar...So long no update le...abit lazy le hor...today got mood to update but bloggy faulty again..nvm..i shall juz blog it anyway....

Nothing much oso...except that monday i went to clementi for a drink with my frends they all at a ktv lounge...that place got those type of "GALS" at nite wan lor..wow pieng ar..bring mi to tis type of places...cant stand them lar...but anyway we reach there early..around 5.30pm than the ktv room is free till 9.30pm i tink..haha..but we oni stay till 8pm coz after that i went over to mit daphne for a tok as she call mi say i bo xim forget her..anyway im at clementi area so i meet up with her for a tok than went home after that....

Tuesday went back to regent to find nasir..coz i meet him for dinner....on my way walking to regent i saw alot of my x-colledgues,,coz they off work at 5.30pm now...tok to them and oni reach regent at 6.20pm...hmm...realli miz them alot lor..wait for nasir till 7pm and off we went to thomson for prata...haf a long long heart to heart tok with him...the cheese prata at the cassirina is nice...hmm...we relax there till 10pm than he send mi home le...Than wednesday after work i went for dinner with my auntie than go home.....so boring hor..heehee

Thursday...todae got a dinner @ Royal Plaza Hotel with my auntie as the sales manager invite the two of us there for viewing of the newly renovated hotel and for dinner...so my auntie bring my uncle and my sis along too...reach there @ 6.30pm coz jam...than went to hotel viewing and of coz buffet time after that...eat till 8.15pm and my auntie left bcoz she got majong session and so she throw my poor uncle together with mi and my sis with Kenny (the sales manager there)..But anyway kenny was indeed a good host of the nite...after dinner he bring us to the lounge for a drink..the environment wise was good...relax and the service is thump up lor...Of coz muz go drink lar or later he thought we so realistic,eat already wan to go off...hahaha.Stay there till 10.10pm like that than my uncle fetch mi to boat quey to mit up with all my cousins coz is Nana actual bdae todae....Hmm...drink again...so long nv drink le...ten ten all lost to PR le..haiz..must go training again liao....PR...watever it is,remember that there are alot of ppl who realli care for u..go tink of wat i told u yest nite in shin toilet k...I do haf my own problems,but y do i go down last nite?Bcoz i care 4 u as my cousins and i dun hope u everyday like that k?

Hmm..anyway..feeling so relax todae...i feel like i haf given up hope on alot of things...i hope it wun oni apply for todae k..i hope tis type of feeling can last long...i dun wish to waste time on ppl who wun appreciate mi @ all....I tink with all my frends suport i can do it ya??? Life isn't as easy as you expect it to be..what i wan doesnt mean i can get and wat i least expected is wat i always get..I must be grateful that i still haf alot of frends who care for mi and realli looking forward to my future......

Hmm....have a chat with stanley in msn juz now...he coming back to Singapore in June...so funny,he tok to mi of those stupid things..asking mi to wait for him to come back lar..dun let other guys bluff my feeling lar and all those bull shit...haha...to be frank..i realli lost confident in guys...their sweet tok is realli bull shit and their promises is alway the opposite..."A Leopard cant change its spot"..Hmm..i realli agree with tis sentence,is stupid when u haf put in so much time and effort in a guy and end up he dun appreciate,,so wats the point of holding on if he dun fuck care?Ya....anyway im totally disappointed in my life of all r/ship...from the 1st bf to the last....all guys is realli the same..no much different,haha..mayb i should realli find those type who is 8-9 year older than mi than he will be mature and put more time and effort on mi instead of their frends bah...haha..K lar...shall stop here....Going to mit up with my frends later...I wan to be happy..realli realli happy and not those who fake and force themself to be happy....

~~~~~Felicia Song Wants To Be Alive Again & Not Dwell On Those Fuck Up Problems~~~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/11/2007 05:48:00 PM|

Saturday, May 05, 2007

[[~~~My Number 40 Blog~~~]]

Kiaoz...write so many blog le now only number 40 blog lor...Juz come back from work..dun need to ask y lar...work untill 12pm todae and after work sing song again lor...hmm..realli realise i every sat go back office oso nothing to do..y cant we juz work 5 days week lar...

As usual reach office at 9am...than clock in on computer and off mi and my aunt go for breakfast and ah gui join us too...we go buy 4D 1st than go eat...reach back office at 10.30am than do some payment voucher than surf net..and so fast 12pm..haha...The stupid director msg mi say he go buy "X BURN RICE" so will be late awhile...kiaoz..wat a good english..char siew rice he oso can tink of tis stupid english lor..haha...so when he reach we EAT AGAIN..than he bring his Gorden Blue come...hmm...never realli drink much...oni a cup to last mi till at nite coz my cough still veri bad and recently realli no mood to drink....

Im glad that thought they are so much older than mi but they still can mix with mi and play all those stupid and funny game with mi...juz bcoz i tell them yest i dun feel happy and today all of them come down and ask mi to stay for ktv after work and accompany mi...thank k..though im realli tired and not enough sleep but i feel veri happi that u all care for mi thought im juz there for oni 2 months and all of u all r realli sweet...i feel so doted when im with u all...Thank u

Hmm..PR jio mi go shin..but still dun feel well and dun feel like drinking...Sorry about it...when my cough ok le we find 1 day go down again....we do haf alot of misunderstanding,..but i believe is easy for us to crush things out...coz since young we are the best cousins...haha....Maybe u r frustrated over somethings tis few days...dun blame u for it but im quite disappointed by the words u say to mi...i believe all tis is a misunderstanding...i admit ever since i start tis new job i seldom go shin bar...reason is simple..coz u all go on fri and the next day i got to work and now im no longer working at Regent Motors le....Hope u can understand...Gif urself sometime to relax ur mind bah..tink tis few days u r too stress up and frustratesd with things...i wun keep it in heart and i hope u wun...No matter how much misunderstanding we haf in the past or now,end up oso we "PATCH" back rite...we r alway the best cousins mah..

Never go drink tis whole week except for monday bah....hmmm....suddenly so scare of liquor..coz whenever i drink i got breathing difficulties...maybe due to my cough bah...i hope i can recover fast and i can realli go enjoy and drink again to the fullest @ shin bar with all my khakis....No drunk no home ok...but choose a saturday nite can bo..haha...

Yest meet up with chiao yee..the 1st things she call mi she ask mi...y ur voice bcum like "babo"..tamade...my voice already much more better than tuesday le lor....haf coffee with her at coffeebean...haf a long chat with her..so long nv c her le...of coz we tok alot alot mah...somemre facing the same problems de..haha....Realli do miz her alot..it haf been quite sometime since i last saw her...of coz we r still the same as b4..bitching about everything and tok cock together..hmmm....she is a great frends of mine...anyway realli happi to meet so many true frends in Regent...do miz those old times.....

Hmm...seriously like wat i told CY & PR..i feel that im having depression lor...hahaha....realli get so sensitive nowadays...i never mean to but i realli cant control my feeling to feel tis way mah....Ur job is realli killing mi like hell...i hate it alot alot lor....K lar...shall stop complaining le...wana go watch tv already.....there goes my saturday nite blogging at home and watching tv...haiz....Oh ya...there is a phrase i love it so so so so much

If u love something,let it go...If it come back to u,It will mean so much more...If it doesn't,it was juz meant to make u grow stronger....

Meaniful hor...k lar...anyway..nitez nitez..will blog again when im not lazy.....

~~~Life is beautiful when ppls show their care to u~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5/05/2007 10:32:00 PM|

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

[[Meaniful Email]]

Boring holiday...Im sick..lost my voice...cant go anywhere...all bcoz of PR FAULT...tamade...ask mi go shin bar yest....Anyway no mood to blog todae..gonna go bath and go AMK hub shopping....Today miko 1st day work at cathering ya....Wish him all the best for his new job....Will update the last few days activities again when i got mood k...Hmm....c the email...so touching...PR ....Pls read tis email and try to understand how i realli feel k...sometime i realli do understand ur point when u explain to mi..but still u muz try to put urself in my shoe and tink is not easy for mi...u should know veri well saying is easy but doing it is veri difficult..im sure u r going it through too so u should be able to understand how i feel...everytime i confide my feeling to u so they are things i dunno how to tell u..so try to understand it by tis email k...im sure u know wat im trying to say...we got a close bond rite....

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trustleads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.

BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States.A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever. Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be p ient. Forgive & forget. Love one and all. If you judge people, you have no time to love them.

~~~~~Gif Him Time To Prove U All Wrong K~~~~~

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